$95 DOWN THE DRAIN

That's how much I spent today in a losing cause. $95 is a lot of money based on my calculations and current financial state. That's 10 hours of nothing but washing dishes and smelling like swedish meatballs. I know there is really no point of dwelling on the subject because what's done is done. The money won't come back to you no matter how much you think about it. It's only going to cause a lot of grief and frustration, something that you really don't need at this very moment given of what just happened. I feel the urge to drink at the moment but Im going to hold it. I don't want this day to be the day I official become a full fledged alcoholic, nor do I look forward to such a day. You know what, I feel like writing today, I don't know why. I most certainly hope to finally acquire this habit. This is the one thing I can do in the mean time that I could help me be a better person socially and mentally. I'll write some more as soon as I come back from the gym. I need to release all this frustration built up inside of me...